I’ve found it difficult to blog lately and I had to sit and ask myself why.
This afternoon I took the time to read my past blogs. It was fun to see the changes in me. What I’ve done, where I’ve been, what excited me. Except for some of the more personal things in my life I have been pretty open and honest. I’ve talked about my PTSD, my travels, my past life, my daily work, crafts I’m working on… heck, I’ve even told you all about my bras and panties!!! Very little has been off limits. When I read all of these posts I say, “GEE… I want the life THAT girl is living.” Trust me when I tell you my life is really not that exciting… you are just getting the highlights.
I began this blogging journey on the advise of so many people ‘in the know’. If I wanted to be an author, I was told, I had to create a ‘platform’. I had to get followers. I had to be witty and charming, and make people LIKE me… so when my book came out I would already have an established following.
I set up Facebook pages… plural. One for me personally, one for me as a writer, and another for my book business Unique and Novel.
As with anything thing… you must practice, practice, practice in order to be good. And so I wrote and wrote and wrote. I sat up in my bedroom window over looking the lake and told you about any little thing that popped into my head… taking pictures when I could. Personal friends marveled at how I was never at a loss for words. I joked by saying I have no one here to talk to… and so I type my thoughts instead. It really isn’t a joke. I really don’t have anyone to ask about my day, so I throw it out to you all to read or not.
As a whole we writers are an insecure bunch… and I am no different. Personally I suffer from low self esteem… as time and time again life and reality hits me in the face to remind me. But I don’t write about that. You wouldn’t LIKE me or my posts if that’s all I wrote.
I also have been taking a close look at my analytics. I haven’t gotten many followers or ‘friends’. To be fair… I don’t work hard at gaining new ones either. Like anything else, I’m good ‘out of the gate’… but never in it for the long haul. And with that statement I will let you in on a secret… the book I’ve been working on will not be published. As a matter of fact I have burned everything in the fireplace this afternoon.
So… without any further fanfare or discussion… I am signing off.